Today, was a GOOD day, and its not even noon!
last night while on facebook i got one of those "suggested" posts for a workout that would be this morning at 8am on Hollywood Beach. i decided to go. it was going to be put on by Organic Fitness and would be a combination of moves from insanity, p90x, and yoga. sounded like a dream come true!
i woke up this morning to thunder, lightening and rain. I texted the instructor to ask if class was rain or shine and he responed that it was. Obv, i did not want to go. it was 7am, i was tired, and it was raining big cold rain drops. however, i had decided that i was going already. i used the excuse "its going to miserable in the rain and then ill never go back" but then i recognized it as an excuse, and got my ass to the beach.
the weather was actually better on the beach than where i live (about 3 miles west of the beach), a little rainy but it was deff clearing up.
the class was great. i actually expected it to be MUCH more miserable and a lot harder. it was deff a "go at your own pace" workout. i prefer that because i know how to push myself, so when i have an asshole trainer in my ear screaming at me that im not pushing and my muscles are shaking, it makes me feel like my best is not good enough, and i dont want to go back. The instructors name was Keith and i liked his vibe right away. I could deff tell he was the yogi, natural type, and i am actually still trying to figure out if ive met him before or if his vibe was just very familiar. While stretching he made a point to tell us not to worry about protien intake- we get MORE than enough. This makes me think he is probably vegan... Although not saying it outright and just suggesting fruits and veggies are the nourishment we need, probably kept a lot of the carnivores minds open. Once u label yourself vegan most carivores shut your nutrition advice out... So keith, well played lol. he did mention the yellow green farmers market- where i get my produce almost every weekend, so im not sure if ive seen him there before. im sure ill figure it out eventually! i deff plan to go to his class again!
anyways, class was great. it started small but more people who just happened to be on the beach joined about halfway through. the group was great. funny personalities and no pressure.... SO different from the bootcamp class i was going to with evan. I didnt feel like i was in a contest at all and i didnt feel stupid trying things i wasnt good at or struggling with things that were hard.
after class i did a little yoga in a corner by myself. ive been working really hard to try to learn to deep breath all the time and be aware of where my breath is coming from. when i rejoined the group keith was doing some hand stands and stuff and i asked if he thought it was easier in the sand.... he said it was much easier to fall lol he gave me some pointers and although i wasnt brave enough to try it without some support, i felt like i was in a safe place to try to do a handstand again.
exactly one week ago i did the FLY workshop, where i fell and cut my nose. i hadnt tried to handstand ONCE all week. i dont know what it was about today... the soft sand for a landing zone, the fact that i just had a great and relaxing workout, the fact that i was at my favorite place in the world- THE BEACH, the fact that i didnt feel judged and like a failure for hours straight..... i dont know, but it just clicked. today i was able to raise my legs up..... AND DO A HANDSTAND!!! the best part was that a group from the fitness class was sitting in the sand, apparently watching. when i finally did it they gave me a little clap. i felt more support in those 10 seconds than i felt in the whole almost 3 hour of practicing last saturday.
this day will deff go down in history. i still have a lot of work to do, ill need to practice my form and pull my ribs in, but i got over the fear of getting my legs over my head!! i think i was more scared than anything else!! i think i am a lot heavier than i actually am, and now that i realized i CAN hold myself up, and my neck is not going to break, its going to be a lot easier to practice, and a lot more frequent.
i am SO excited. i was literally thinking that handstands and yoga just must not be for me after last week. today i feel so much more confident and positive. and to think- all because of a facebook ad!