i was at the gym and i couldnt stop staring at this one lady. i felt like a total asshole because i know when i was big i assumed every who was looking at me was thinking "why is so she slow" or "why is she so sweaty?" or "shes doing it wrong". i wasnt thinking any of that though. i was just thinking " YOU GO GIRL!!"!!!! i was tempted to interrupt her and introduce myself, but you never know how someone will react. god forbid shes got offended and i lose my gym membership for harassing members lol
i didnt ssay anything to her. i was about to leave when i noticed her on the treadmill. she looked like she was in pain. i had been there 90mins and she was there the whole time i think, and she was working hard. i saw her doing a lot of exercises most big people dont even try (she was KILLIN it with sit ups) anyways, after a long workout i could tell she had had enough, and decided, fuck it. i asked the person at the desk for a post it and a pen. i wrote "DONT GIVE UP! I USED TO BE 300LBS! MEMYSCALEANDI.WEEBLY.COM" and as i walked past her treadmill i stuck it on the screen and gave her a smile and a thumbs up, and left.
i didnt want to embarass her at all... so if you DID find your way to my blog, please know that! i was SO impressed by her.... and i needed to make sure i took my little 20 seconds to tell her that her efforts show, and she will get there if she keeps trucking along. someone like her can DEFF lose the weight, and i know she will if she keeps on the right path. so, lady in the blue shirt from the gym, if youre reading this, YOU GO GIRL!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!! you can do ANYTHING you decide to do!!!!
in other news, my neighbor gave me a peice of gym equipment! hes had it in his yard and offered for me to use it, i never did because i HATE when people come in my yard, i deff dont want to hang out in someone elses. well, he hasnt used it in the 6 mons ive lived here so he decided if he relocated it, we might get use out of it. so now i have a little gym in my little yard. itll be great for the days i dont make it to the gym and just jog. my trainer has taught me how to do lunges and stuff w equipment like it so i am pretty excited!!
i had to stop by Publix for some lettuce today.... worst idea ever. whenever i go into a mainstream grocery store i feel like i cant eat ANYTHING. thats because grocery stores NEVER highlight clean food. every end cap you walk by is chips or soda... both were buy one get one free today.... and god knows i love a sale! lol the BOGO pepsi wasnt tempting because i dont even like soda. i cant even get thru a whole cup before i feel like i can feel the sugar sticking to my arteries. the chips, however, were a whole nother story. i love doritos, especially cool ranch and sweet chili. i found out a few months ago that sweet chili are actually vegan! fuck!! lol that does NOT mean theyre good for you, it just means no animals were harmed to make them, and therefor your body wont punish you for eating it :) BOGO doritos. i stood there looking at them at least 30 seconds. and im proud to say, checked out with nothing but lettuce. i love chips, especially those, and getting a free bag makes buying a bag that much more tempting. but i didnt. even 6 months ago i dont know that i wouldve made the same decision. i prob wouldve bought them and convinced myself i would eat them 12 at a time, as the servings suggest.... but that usually fails by the time i get to the second half of the bag, and then i eat 4 servings at once and feel like a big fat cow afterward. i knew this was NOT a chance i could take. i havent talked much about it, because i dont wanna jinx it, but theres a potential reality show brewing at the thick salon. even though everyone there (besides 2 girls) is thick as fuck, i still want to look my best and most lean. next week, we will be spending two days filming and this could potentially end up airing as one of the first episodes. if that happens i cannot live the rest of my life knowing i did not do my absolute best to feel my most confident that day. so ive decided itll be shakeology and salad all day, every day till next week. i wont be starving, but those two meals keep my belly flat. i dont want to risk feeling bloated and shit like on my birthday. when i was on "Kendra on Top" i had only lost like 30lbs, but i felt AWESOME that day even though i look fat as fuck in the tape, i dont care, because i know i FELT awesome that day. i guess you could say this is my first taste of stardom...... realizing how much easier it is to stick to a diet when you know the whole world is about to see you lol