ive been trying to do some yoga. when i was in highschool i did yoga for a little bit & loved it but i couldnt do a lot of the poses because my body couldnt take the shape. childs pose- for example- was impossible because my belly was so big i could not lean forward with a flat back.
so i decided the other day to try some yoga. it was so cool being able to do poses i never could before. what wasnt cool was not being able to do some things i always could.
i cannot do any thing that involves sitting & pressure on your "sitting bones" as they call it. my ass is so fucking bony its literally painful. like i just quit 15 minutes into the workout. right now in a chair i am sitting on my thighs- no pressure on my actual ass. if i out my hand right at the top of my ass crack i can literally feel my tail bone. i can grab it, i can feel the roundness of the bottom part of it- it almost feels like the shape of a cucumber or something.
a few months ago at zumba was when i noticed it first. we were on the ground stretching and we did something that put pressure right there and i said OUCHHH!!!!! wtf is stabbing into the floor?!! my zumba teacher laughed & said it was my bones. but i dont understand why no one else was in pain? probably because they have layers of fat & muscle over their bones. i do not. ive been doing squats & lunges for a year & still nothing. ill never be able to put fat in my ass without surgery & apparently i am failing at building muscle there. i know we are all made up differently, but how can i be made with NO ass muscle??? why dont i even have a little tiny bit to build on? i dont know. my ass looks better than it did, but i think its because i lost inches in my thighs, so i have a little "shelf" between my thigh & ass..... my thighs are smaller but my ass isnt actually any bigger. bonier & bonier & bonier. when i had my extensions switched out in october i was in pain by the end of the service- my ass hurt so bad! i thought damn! this is what it feels like to be a client?! then it occurred to me- no clients ever complains about that! and if it hurt like how mine does they would deff complain! so ive decided this is not normal. this is not what the average person feels when they are sitting or working out.
just another perk of losing weight! -__-