so today i went to nuerofeedback directly after a run. i looked like a sweaty animal and it was actually borderline embarassing LOL anyways, when i walked in my doctor was like WOAH! you look jacked compared to last week!!! LOL this was great news. i havent been doing anything different this week compared to last, but this means all my effort with p90x3 are working!! i frieken love this workout, i keep thinking i have a new "favorite". right now its between pilates and mmx. last week while doing MMX i was punching so hard that i could actually hear the excess skin from my arm and amrpit clapping together. thats the same noise my belly makes when i jump with loose pants on lol. little reminders like that make working my ass off and begging for donations for skin removal not seem so crazy after all, thats for sure. i am close to the $1500 mark for donations though! the support is unreal!!
i had won a $500 daily prize in the beach body challenge back in august. i had really hoped to win a monthly or larger prize. winning the daily made me happy, but kind of made me think that if i only won the smallest prize possible (besides none) that i didnt have a shot at a bigger prize. well, the other day i found out in order to win a monthly prize, you have to have already won a daily prize! so i didnt win a bigger prize because i was inelligable. i had resubmitted my results in jan but with no prize.... now that i found out the next step is to win a monthly to advance, i am on it!!! i will be resubmitting in february as well as march (the contest runs april-march not jan-dec). hopefully with my new found muscles i will be able to score a monthly prize! if i win a monthly, i am elligible for to be a finalist, that would mean a free trip to vegas for coach summit, $25,000 and a chance at the $100,000 annual prize!!! ive known about the challenge for a long time, and i wish i had been working with the idea of winning the challenge in mind the whole time, because i think with the motivation its given me, id have a 6 pack by now! lol but for some reason i didnt think i had a chance at winning the big prize until recently. but it was like i had an epiphany. WHY NOT ME??? my friend evan pointed out to me recently that i am in a very small group of people. not many people have lost HALF of themselves. he is right. most people havent! this is a rare thing!! so why couldnt i win?!! i CAN!!! and im GOING TO!! at least that is what i am putting out into the universe and hoping the higher powers agree!! ill keep you guys updated on that as it unfolds.
so i am sure youre wondering what i thought about the biggest loser finale.... i am sure because ive gotten quite a few inboxes about it LOL the way i feel is... TORN! i missed the live finale. so the next day when i got up and i was reading all the comments about " that girl who won biggest loser was TOO skinny" "i bet she cant do a triathlon now!" i was annoyed. i hate when people tell me i should stop losing, or ask if im "done", or how small do i plan to get.... so i thought these people were just being those assholes, who think "you look good enough! so stop now!". just jerks who cant handle seeing another big girl smaller than them.... and then i saw the finale.
WOW. my jaw dropped. i was deff shocked. i never expected her to be THAT skinny. 105lbs??? holy cow. when she first came out i thought it was strange she had such a loose dress on.... usually the contestants are wearing something fitted to show off their new shape... in this case it was like they put her in something loose to hide how small she was. but you could tell. her calf muscles looked gigantic and i honestly was concerned her knees might buckle. a serious concern of mine was how skinny her arms looked. her calf muscles were a great sign, but her arm muscles seemed to have vanished.
heres the thing, if this is rachels dream size, i would love to support her. i could argue, "she doesnt look healthy"- but thats not a valid argument because that is simply my opinion of how she should looks- and my opinion does not matter. however, if i use the argument" her BMI is now considered underweight" theres not much to say about that.... and in an article i read, according to her reported height and new weight, her bmi is a tiny 17.something.
another concern i have is the amount of time. im not sure exactly how long they get in between taping and finale, but its not more than a few months. her transformation was SO drastic during such a short time, i cannot help but be suspicious of her methods. i feel guilty for placing this judgement on the poor girl, but it just doesnt add up.
i thought maybe she got as skinny as possible with a plan to put some weight on after she won the prize, but she denied that in interviews too.... she says she is all about maintenance now.
i am going to give rachel the benefit of the doubt and tell myself she is under the care of a great doctor who would tell her if she had any real health issues with her new weight. i like to think she is strong and intelligent enough to change her lifestyle should she become unhealthy, as thats what she was trying to avoid being over weight. i have a feeling in a few years she might look back and wonder "what was i thinking?!!" but in the mean time, i really dont want to judge her.... i cannot prove she did anything unhealthy to reach that weight, but i think the trainers reactions says it all, they expect contestants to restrict calories and work out like crazy and even they didnt see those results coming!
even though i have officially contributed to it, i hope rachel is not letting all the negative attention get to her, and i hope she is still working toward one day being a healthy, happy, most excellent version of herself!
i had won a $500 daily prize in the beach body challenge back in august. i had really hoped to win a monthly or larger prize. winning the daily made me happy, but kind of made me think that if i only won the smallest prize possible (besides none) that i didnt have a shot at a bigger prize. well, the other day i found out in order to win a monthly prize, you have to have already won a daily prize! so i didnt win a bigger prize because i was inelligable. i had resubmitted my results in jan but with no prize.... now that i found out the next step is to win a monthly to advance, i am on it!!! i will be resubmitting in february as well as march (the contest runs april-march not jan-dec). hopefully with my new found muscles i will be able to score a monthly prize! if i win a monthly, i am elligible for to be a finalist, that would mean a free trip to vegas for coach summit, $25,000 and a chance at the $100,000 annual prize!!! ive known about the challenge for a long time, and i wish i had been working with the idea of winning the challenge in mind the whole time, because i think with the motivation its given me, id have a 6 pack by now! lol but for some reason i didnt think i had a chance at winning the big prize until recently. but it was like i had an epiphany. WHY NOT ME??? my friend evan pointed out to me recently that i am in a very small group of people. not many people have lost HALF of themselves. he is right. most people havent! this is a rare thing!! so why couldnt i win?!! i CAN!!! and im GOING TO!! at least that is what i am putting out into the universe and hoping the higher powers agree!! ill keep you guys updated on that as it unfolds.
so i am sure youre wondering what i thought about the biggest loser finale.... i am sure because ive gotten quite a few inboxes about it LOL the way i feel is... TORN! i missed the live finale. so the next day when i got up and i was reading all the comments about " that girl who won biggest loser was TOO skinny" "i bet she cant do a triathlon now!" i was annoyed. i hate when people tell me i should stop losing, or ask if im "done", or how small do i plan to get.... so i thought these people were just being those assholes, who think "you look good enough! so stop now!". just jerks who cant handle seeing another big girl smaller than them.... and then i saw the finale.
WOW. my jaw dropped. i was deff shocked. i never expected her to be THAT skinny. 105lbs??? holy cow. when she first came out i thought it was strange she had such a loose dress on.... usually the contestants are wearing something fitted to show off their new shape... in this case it was like they put her in something loose to hide how small she was. but you could tell. her calf muscles looked gigantic and i honestly was concerned her knees might buckle. a serious concern of mine was how skinny her arms looked. her calf muscles were a great sign, but her arm muscles seemed to have vanished.
heres the thing, if this is rachels dream size, i would love to support her. i could argue, "she doesnt look healthy"- but thats not a valid argument because that is simply my opinion of how she should looks- and my opinion does not matter. however, if i use the argument" her BMI is now considered underweight" theres not much to say about that.... and in an article i read, according to her reported height and new weight, her bmi is a tiny 17.something.
another concern i have is the amount of time. im not sure exactly how long they get in between taping and finale, but its not more than a few months. her transformation was SO drastic during such a short time, i cannot help but be suspicious of her methods. i feel guilty for placing this judgement on the poor girl, but it just doesnt add up.
i thought maybe she got as skinny as possible with a plan to put some weight on after she won the prize, but she denied that in interviews too.... she says she is all about maintenance now.
i am going to give rachel the benefit of the doubt and tell myself she is under the care of a great doctor who would tell her if she had any real health issues with her new weight. i like to think she is strong and intelligent enough to change her lifestyle should she become unhealthy, as thats what she was trying to avoid being over weight. i have a feeling in a few years she might look back and wonder "what was i thinking?!!" but in the mean time, i really dont want to judge her.... i cannot prove she did anything unhealthy to reach that weight, but i think the trainers reactions says it all, they expect contestants to restrict calories and work out like crazy and even they didnt see those results coming!
even though i have officially contributed to it, i hope rachel is not letting all the negative attention get to her, and i hope she is still working toward one day being a healthy, happy, most excellent version of herself!