i slept about 9 hours last night. was a little easier to fall asleep without a nap, but didnt keep me from waking up to pee. i felt refreshed this morning. the only time im really tired is in the evening, which is how its supposed to be anyway so i'm not mad at that! today i am tired a little earlier than i have been, but today was my first day working at the salon during the cleanse (besides day 1- which doesnt really count since nothing was happening yet).
Today my half marathon training called for a 4 mile run. Since i'm not running on the reset i walked 4 miles. I noticed by mile 2 my legs felt tired. Not at ALL normal for me. So i googled it. It turns out a lot of people experience muscle pain on the reset. its not that youre hurt, its lactic acid that is built up in your muscles being released. that makes me happy because lactic acid comes from milk (that shit is POSION! tell me one other species who drinks milk from another species besides humans.... NONE! its not natural! its not meant for humans!) and i havent drank milk in about a year and only consume it in moments of weakness when i cave in to milk chocolate or real pizza. So knowing that my body will get rid of whats been built up makes me thrilled!
food today was ok. no lentil lime salad so obv im disappointed :-P the food today was yummy- but nothing that made me say OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS IS MY DIET PLAN. but nothing that tasted bad or too bland or made me think "i cant do this". I drank about 80oz of water today. only 64 are required so i am still drinking more than enough, but i realized how much my water consumption fluctuates.
i was slightly irritable today. I know this is really common at this stage of the game. the shopping and preparing and cooking and bullshit becomes a lot when you mix it with your normal life. One of the girl in my challenge group texted me to tell me she was quitting today. I talked her into giving it another week. she has had a mess up pretty much every day since we started. shes looking at is as "well, i already messed up 5 days anyways so i might as well quit". im looking at it as "its only been 5 days. if you commit to doing the next 16 right you will get so much more out of this than doing 0 days right!" i want her to hang out because she feels like between work and baby and husband and house duties this is too much for her- and that is very justified. however, imagine how AMAZING she will feel if she does finish it?? i want to help her feel that feeling! and i also want her to get all the benefits she was doing this for- weight loss, a reset appetite, reset taste buds, a better idea of true clean eating. Another coach on my team who i ADMIRE x1million- miss Jamie Len Cumbo- aka @JUMPROPEQUEEN (on instagram- follow her for AMAZE yoga poses!!!) told me that she almost quit right around this time when she was doing the reset as well. and i KNOW jamie is not a quitter. so for her to want to throw in the towel speaks volumes about what a commitment this is. but it also just reminded me that feeling weak right now is totally normal and we're all going to get thru it if we keep why we started and what we wanted to get out of it in mind.
i just binged ate for 8 days. thats the LONGEST binge ive ever gone on in the entire time ive been trying to lose weight, 22 months. the FIRST. ive done a day or 2, and maybe even 3 once, but EIGHT?! no way. that scares the shit out of me that i could slip up, and next thing i know its two slip ups, next thing i know its a WEEK, next thing i know i am 284lbs again! the only positive to that would be id have a couple thousand extra dollars from saving up for a tummy tuck i wouldnt need. other than that it would be a complete TRAGEDY. that may sound dramatic, but im so serious. to lose all the power i feel i have gained in this journey would be devestating. I REFUSE to go back. So i am resetting not only to lose a few more pounds, not only to get all the bullshit left over from when i ate animals out of my system, not only to get the toxins from alcohol and the environment out of my system, but to remind myself i enjoy clean eating and i feel my best when im eating this way and living a life dedicated to my health.
work for 11 hours tomorrow. i am about to cook all my meals and pack my lunch box so theres no room for error! failing to plan is planning to fail and this chick right here- is no failure!! :-D Bring on day 6!
definitely annoyed right now. my body aches are terrible. i feel like ive been slumped over in a computer chair for 12 hours after running at 10k. i know what both of those feel like, and this is it LOL i mean, its bearable, but its not at all enjoyable. im reading its really common. most people for a couple days, some people for all 21. this is an "inner body workout" so sore insides can be expected. this is all so weird and makes me want to seriously learn about nutrition. how on earth am i taking herbal and mineral supplements and eating clean food and making my body clean itself out! the body and its relation to foods and nutrients is so frieken amazing! i got an invite to a 3 part nutrition seminar from Keith (the guy from Ogfit.com who helped me do my first headstand!) and was considering passing on it to put the $$ toward my tummy tuck. but i think i just decided i need to go. i need to know more about how food works with/against my body!! this is so damn amazing! going to bed now and hoping that i sleep well because tomorrow is a long day!