I went to the park and did laps and the exercise machines 3 days this week. Another day I rode my bike. One day I only jogged and one day I kayaked.
I ate ok. I was a little bit busy, and lazy when I wasn't and didn't pre-plan my food. Yesterday all I ate was subway, twice. If I'm going to stay on track and eat fast food it's deff subway, but even subway isnt as healthy as food from home. The sodium is too high- they have to keep those veggies green longer to get the most profit you know!
Don't for a second think that restaraunts or food companies generally care about your health. And deff don't believe everything they tell you. Its sick how many things that are terrible for you are marketed as healthy. That should be illegal. Or what about that at home soda maker on tv? They say "Do you want to make FRESH soda at home?!" fresh soda?! thats a phrase to trick your brain into thinking "fresh? fresh is better for me! i need that soda instead of a can!" No. there is no such thing as "fresh" soda unless were referring to it as not flat, i guess that's fresh. Soda is the liquid devil. why on earth would you want to drink your calories is beyond me. On top of that youre spiking your sugar levels to like a trillion by the sip. My stepdad stopped drinking pepsi 6x a day and started riding a bike and lost like 30lbs once. Its crazy- he didn't change the food he ate, and he isnt exactly a health nut. By the way, diet soda is not good for you either. If you can't figure out why please refer to my post about not putting things we cannot pronounce into us.
Another fucked up commercial lie I love is the one about high fructose corn syrup and how "your body doesnt know the difference". I havent done much research on this to know if your body reacts differently to corn sugar and cane sugar but the reason high fructose corn syrup(HFCS) got a bad rap is because its IN EVERYTHING and too much of anything is bad for you. In order to consume an amount that is healthy you have to consciously switch to some things without it. if regular cane sugar was the 2nd ingredient in anything(like HFCS often is) it would prob not be considered a healthy choice. It doesn't matter which fat cell swelling sweetener is overloading that crap- neither is good for you.
Back to my eating this week. I had a few really good days. Yesterday was subway day. Today I had a lunch date with a past coworker and I ordered a buffalo chicken wrap with Gardein[plantbased] chicken, romaine and celery. Instead of fries I got a side salad with vinaigrette. I ate egg salad and pistachios for dinner and no breakfast due to a morning bellyache. Not the worst decisions ever but not the best either.
Yesterday at work I had a shot of patron. I did a porn stars hair and before she left my boss let me have a pink patron shot with them(we always serve it to our clients but we do not drink on the clock). I almost never drink, and never at work, but it was the last client, and she was a porn star. I had to. 100+ calories in .2 seconds. ouch.
Earlier in the week I had a good ol fashioned sleepover with a friend and we had Dominos. This was good and bad. Bad because its fucking toxic. Good because there was nothing shameful or secretive about it. I ate a few slices and a few cinnastix. And 9 oclock the next morning I was running around the damn track. I hate mornings, but I love pizza. Gotta do what you gotta do.
Fun Fact: when you eat shit you crave shit, and feel like shit. I have wanted pizza every single day since I ate it. I was (CAUTION: TMI AHEAD!) constipated for 24hours after, and am still craving it. I had to get on pinterest and search "fitness" for an hour before I convinced myself not to give in and eat it again tonight. Yesterday I literally drove to the pizza place after work and sat there for a few minutes before I took my ass home and worked out instead.
I did have some real successes this week though. I didn't eat any of the chocolate and starbursts I walk past 15x a day at work. I went to the beach with a friend and so it would be easy to avoid the food truck I brought watermelon, almonds, pistachios, and water. Normally at the beach (i usually go to a nude beach) I do not want to walk around because I am self conscious about my flat ass. Now, I am no Nikki Minaj but my ass is looking better so this time I finally agreed to walk around. But I have a new insecurity- my saggy stomach. It hangs, it reminds me of Kate Gosselin after delivering 8 kids. I look deflated(I do plan to have a tummy tuck in the future, more about that later). So I put on a thong to cover my belly in the front but to expose my newly developed ass. I asked my friend to take a picture of me walking so I could see, how am I supposed to know what I look like from behind me at this size? I've never been this size so I wanted to see! Now I wish I could post this picture on the internet because I am so fucking proud. My ass looks cute. The upside to a flat ass is no cellulite. there is definition between my thigh and my ass cheek- I used to get teased because my back went from "back to thigh" there was just a crack inbetween, but no ass! now I have a line which means I have ass cheeks. Hallelujah. If anyone is my personal friend and wants to see, text me, I'd love to share lol. This is a big deal for me.
Overall, because of the lack of triumph I feel thinking about this last week though, this upcoming week is going to be a grand slam. Tomorrow after my appointments I am going to plan meals for the week. Wednesday night I will cook food for work thurs, fri, and sat. Fortunately zumba is back on this week (60 mins mon&weds, 90mins tues) so I will zumba my ass off as well as kayak at least once and i'm sure hit the park. I may even do a day or two of insanity- insanity makes me feel like I earned my sweat lol.
I am so close to being less than 200lbs sometimes I think i am subconsciously sabotaging myself. These last few pounds are proving hell to lose.
It is so amazing to watch the domino effect this is causing. Maybe i'm imagining it and tooting my own horn but since I started being very open about this journey I have never seen more posts from my facebook and twitter friends about how theyre "changing their lives" and "not eating crap" and "doing insanity" and "cutting out preservatives". It makes me SO happy. I want everyone I know to experience how good this feels! Thats what I was telling myself when contemplating pizza tonight- I can either feel amazing tomorrow or I can feel terrible (mentally and physically) tomorrow. DONT MAKE THE IDIOT CHOICE!