so im kind of a hot mess right now. on christmas i went to my grandparents house. i only ate one plate of food. it was super rich & plenty buttery though. I got super sick. i was doing my aunts hair and sweating my ass off while my stomach was cramping. i had to go to the bathroom like 100x- which is preferred over being constipated... but it was painful & annoying. while it was happening i was thinking " juice cleanse tomorrow". but when tomorrow came I wasnt sick, but i felt fat & was craving fat so i ate like crap again. the next day i went grocery shopping to jump start my ambition & still ate at least one terrible for me item every day from then till yesterday. I had pizza, jalepeno poppers, onion rings, fudge....i am not proud of it at all.
on new years eve we had the busiest day ever at the salon. i had brough celery & salad but was starving. we were so busy no one got a break so i deff couldnt go get food. they got a few platters from subway though. youre not going to believe it, but i ate a turkey sandwich. it was like 3" or whatever those little platter sizes are. my mom had accidnetly fed me turkey in chili mixing up the crumbles & turkey batches a few months ago & i didnt get sick so i knew i wouldnt. i also knew as on jan 1 i would be going hardcore vegan & deff not eating anything animal.... so i ate it. i dont regret it really- it actually reminded me im not missing anything. my peppered tofurkey has more flavor than that turkey any day. and no one has to die for me to eat the tofurkey. its a win! new years eve night i actually didnt even drink. i had a few friends over & we had a little bonfire in my back yard. i split a cheese digornio pizza with my frend & we put organic mushrooms on top (what a waste lol) & also had organic salads. it wasnt a win, but not a complete fail.
yesterday i ate fabulously, although i had a really bad day. i didnt work out.... i felt terrible about it but not terrible enough to get up & do it. a lot of shit just got to me yesterday & i had no mojo as far as working out goes.
so i weighed myself yesterday & apparently i gained 10lbs this month. i know a lot has to do with eating something bad every single day for the week preceding that weigh-in... but it sucked. the weird thing is i feel smaller, i can fit into a smaller size, but my weight went up.... i did insanity for 2 weeks of the month so we could say its "muscle weight" but i doubt it. i do know that right now i look pregnant though. its crazy that u can eat pizza everyday & not look any different a week later when youre 300lbs, but when youre less than 200 & u eat like shit its instant bloat & pregnant looking. round belly or not, i still wore a size 8 dress this week & size 12 jeans all month. so my weight is up but i dont think im actually bigger.... im not so worried about the # as much as what i look like though so im not depressed or anything.... but i am going to get that shit off. it comes back SO EASY.... i swore id never be over 200 again & if i keep on this path i will be.
so yea, im not good at keeping weight off if im not tracking. i wrote down what i ate almost every day but im not actually counting calories & stuff. i guess im not good enough at it to do it in my head, even to maintain. so as of yesterday I started tracking again on sparkpeople.com
so what does it mean if im "mostly vegan"? i cant say I AM VEGAN because being vegan is not only about food. vegans dont eat or use or promote anything made from/by an animal, tested on an animal, or anything like that. i plan to eat about 95% vegan. i dont say 100 because if i consume an animal unknowingly or because im in a tricky spot with few options i am not going to beat myself up. i deff wont be eating any turkey or anything but knowing if i go to a restaraunt & they have no options that dont have traces of egg or milk i will order the most reasonable vegetarian option. i am also unable to be vegan because i am a hairdresser in miami. a big seller down here is keratin treatments. keratin is a protein found in hair & nails. when u get a treatment your hair is infused with super high doses of the protein to undo the damage youve done removing it. but where does the keratin come from? not humans! i stand by keratin complex because the quality is amazing. however the keratin in all their products comes from organic sheep farms. OHHHHH but its organic! who cares! organic only means the sheep were not shot up or fed chemicals.... it doesnt mean theyre not in tiny cages walking in their own feces & getting their hair boiled off alive. i mean i have no proof this is what their farms are like- but more likely than not- thats what the farm is like. ive researched some vegan alternatives & someday i will try them out but right now its not a priority. so to sum this up- dont call me a vegan- because i am not. I just have a mostly vegan eating strategy. :)
so i came across this workout on pinterest called the TABATA workout... it was developed by japanese scientists as the worlds fastest most effective workout- its only 4 minutes & jumps your metabolism for up to 36hours. i did it & basically its the Insanity warm up lol it does make you sweat, and its FOUR MINUTES..... so save this link & do it every morning when you wake up :)
click here: TABATA WORKOUT
so about insanity. i quit again. not because im lazy- i woke up and did insanity christmas morning! my left knee is hurting me again :( when i started the first round of oscon i felt great so never ordered round 2.... but i shouldve taken the professional advice because 2 weeks later i have knee pain when im sitting down for christ sake. my right knee is fine, its frustrating. so im waiting for my next bottle of oscon to come in & i will attempt the insanity challenge once more.... however im not willing to sacrifice my ability to run & bike & zumba so i can say i completed the insanity challenge. as much as id like to accomplish that, its not worth it if it means an injury.
i cant wait for sunday. I run the Biggest Loser 5k in the morning & then the new season of the biggest loser premiers that night! in feb im doing the biggest loser off road challenge- its like warrior dash or tough mudder biggest loser style. im so excited. im getting a tshirt made with my before pictures on it to inspire the people at the race that they dont have to be on the biggest loser to lose a hundred pounds!
i recently heard that obesity has surpassed cigarette smoke as the leading cause of preventable death in our country. thats terrible. makes me sad. but all the more reason for all of us to stick to our fitness goals.
i was watching Here Comes Honey BooBoo last night.... it was the episode where the sister has a baby. i dont watch it much but it really sucked me in.... Alana (honey booboo) is a chubby little girl which isnt surprising since her whole family is big. she was doing a pageant & her dress was too tight. she said "i think im chunky today!" & her mom told her " you better lay off them chicken nuggets! i told you" and honey boo boo, in a quiet little embarrassed voice says "i cant" and looks down. talk about breaking my heart. Alana is like 6. she cannot have chicken nuggets if an adult doesnt give them to her. dont guilt the child for your actions honey mama. not cool. it reminded me of my grandfather trying to teach my neice to eat less junk food. he told her eating all that junk food was bad for her & would make her fat.... not a lie. but it made me sad because she was 4. she isnt in control of what she eats. the adults in her life need a lesson on nutrition- not her! sure, you can say youre telling them to teach them- but a child doesnt learn nutrition that way, they learn by example. so lets not make our little girls feel like theyve done something wrong or they should feel bad about what they eat when theyre not even the ones making their food choices. their adults have developed their taste buds according to what theyve given the kid. scorn the adult, not the baby. i didnt bring this up just to hate on the honey boo boo clan though. i actually really enjoyed it.... theyre deff redneck, theyre deff loud & obnoxious, but they are actually a really good family. they had so much love for that little 11 fingered baby & they teased her for it too lol- reminds me of my family lol. but alana didnt get to go to her pagaent because the baby was born and she said "its ok, there are other pageants, we have to take care of the family first!" she is a little kid, that was so sweet to hear from her. although their mom is not teaching them nutrition she does remind them that it doesnt matter if youre big or small, youre still beautiful. and fat little redneck alana sits there with her mirror telling herself how beautiful she is.... and she is. she is so confident & when shes dont performing she talks all about how she rocked that pageant. its really sweet. now if only they could get their health controlled the honey boo boo family might be my favorite tv family after the kardashians! (lmao complete joke- not a kardashian fan lol)
i hope you all have a great new year! & when youre having a hard time sticking to your resolution remember this- on this day last year i was almost 300lbs. no surgery, no biggest loser tv show, no gym membership, you dont need any of that. you can do it. the only thing thats ever stopped you is YOU. allow yourself to succeed in 2013, its about time & you deserve it :)