Today's Zumba was in a hotel ballrooom with big mirrors. The regular class goers were in the front so the people who already knew the moves would be visible. I was right in front of a mirror. It was so weird! First of all, I cannot believe how narrow I've gotten. I was comparing the width of my hips to the woman on the side of me- who I'd consider a regular sized lady. I'm not much wider. Looking at myself in a group of people I realized I was not a giant in comparison. I didn't feel like the "fat girl in the room" at all. It was crazy.
On top of that I bought a size " L 12/14" workout pants today. LARGE! wtf. The idea that I may have a single digit pants size one day is mind blowing.
I never wore jeans much as a kid. I was chunky, especially around the middle so it was hard to find jeans for me. I remember going to Vanity Fair with my mom and grandmother to try on jeans. My grandmother moved to Florida(this was in MA) when I was 9 so I was less than 9. I remember we had to go to the junior section because I didn't fit in the kids pants. I don't remember what size I got that day. But I do remember jean shopping for junior high. And I was a 14. I am a 14 right now. My friend who I met in junior high literally just left and she couldn't stop saying how much weight I've lost. I told her I was this size when we first knew each other, we met when we were 12! I don't feel like I was shaped like this when I was that young, but I'm positive I was this size. I very much remember needing to buy women's pants- from the petite section because my legs were still short and I no longer fit into the juniors. This was deff way before high school.
So I know it's tuesday but i've had a great week so far. I planned all my meals out and even cooked some of them already- I'll make the rest tomorrow. I think I'm going to do insanity tomorrow. Zumba today really got me motivated. I remember the first zumba class I went to- in February(in Mass) and I was looking in the mirror thinking I looked like a giant compared to everyone. My shoulders were so wide. My middle was so wide. My legs were so thick. It was SO weird to feel like just another lady today. Normally I love attention (shit, I have fire red hair) but today it felt really good to feel like all eyes werent on me- atleast not for the wrong reasons. If they were it was because I was zumbaing my ass off in a limegreen shirt and a limegreen headband and neon pink shoes :-P